1/11/2013
Last night's dream was all over the place - mentally and physically. Possibly because I don't remember the dream all too well. I remember I was with Jordan Supon at a family gathering - okay, well with my parents. We were having dinner out somewhere and Jordan and I started arguing. I don't know what for but the arguing escalated and I was heated over something minuscule, but it was a value I promised myself I'd never let someone tell me any differently about. I ended up breaking it off with him. It was hard to fathom and I never knew that we'd go our separate ways, but I was prideful for the reason I done so, that I told myself it had to be done. Jordan didn't want to break it off but respected our differences.
. . . The dream jumps to me being on a playground.
A playground that both children and adults can play on. It was like a small amusement park, but all the activities were in a circle and you go to the next one, and this circular activity revolves around a sandy playground. I was with my friend Patrick Joseph going from one activity to the next, but even then I was thinking about Jordan. Patrick did comment that our breakup was over something stupid and I should still be with Jordan. I told him, "Probably. But I got to be a free bird, at least for now, to enjoy some things he rather not." I remember in my dream having this sense of individuality and my own identity again such as in my youth. Perhaps something I miss from that time. We got on this one ride - Patrick is at one end and I'm at another facing each other. This was a water ride and just before going through a waterfall, I look behind me to see who is in the next seat and it was my friend Ty Kukielka that I originally met at church. He was sad . . . very sad it appeared. He was looking down and sighing. I didn't even say hello because he was so sad - and I thought for some reason he was sad about me. Right then I woke up!
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